Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Everybody's free
To make their own choices
Their unique mistakes
To listen to me if they can bear
I'm free to say this everytime you read it

There's one advice I wanna give
For the future, a golden one for the words
Use sunscreen lotion for your skin
That'll save you from the depletion of ozone
Til' you're set to be over

Be a docile adolescent
Let others cite an example of yourself to their children
And befriend the kids who hear about you
Make them admit to what they'll ever hear
Be decent
Inculcate a charming personality
Develop a sumptuous dressing- sense
Grow up to be mature
Make others despise themselves when they see you
Read quality books, write passionate soliloquys
Play the electric guitar from the time when you were six
Be tall enough to be a wizard at basketball
Have a lot of friends
Philander in successions
Never play with anyone's heart
Don't let anyone play with yours
Live once in New York City
But leave before it makes you too stoic
Live once in Northern California
But leave before it makes you too soft
Make your own choices
That's your half a chance to make it
Like a half chance for anybody else
Respect your elders
Be respected by young ones
Live a happy life
Make others happy
Listen to advices of the less worthy people
But follow your own heart
Don't use too much gel in your hair
Or you'll look 85 by the time you're 40
Have a firm hand
But don't be headstrong
Smile like a child
But think like a man
Marry when you look the best
Die before you approach your worst
Let optimism be the way of life
Be hopeful that good things will happen
But don't be too hopeful
To be perished in the real world
Remember only the compliments you receive
Forget the errors you made
And by the end of the day, you'll feel satisfied with life
Don't be dark, don't be gothic
Don't cut your nerves when you're down
Maintain your complexion
Don't stand too long in the sun
Avoid sickness, be healthy
Be a sweetheart, be stealthy
Maybe someone will get to love you
Maybe not
Maybe you'll have children someday
Maybe you won't
Don't rely on anyone to support you
Learn to stand on your own
You may have a wife or a sibling
But you never know
You may have a clear vision for a lifetime
Or wear glasses from when you were ten
You may grow up to change the world
Or be forgotten by your loved ones
Be strong enough to live with that
They'll follow you soon when you're fun
Don't be ashamed if you don't know what you wanna be
There are people I know who're 43
Still wondering what they'd be best at
And People who're nearing death
Contemplating the very pupose of their lives
Don't let it show what's going on in your mind
Don't be tagged turbulent
Grow old to complain
That commodities were cheaper when you were young
That children respected their elders more
Of how politicians used to be honest and efficient
And how they aren't now
Be a wise man
Or atleast fake it til' your death

If you're able to do all of this
Tell me how you did it
Then you give me advices
And I'll follow yours
Til' that time
Remember what I said
And use the sunscreen lotion
Everybody's free to use sunscreen lotion


Understand my leaving
I'll leave you in another world
It's a place that will suck you down
and everyday through the night
Resurrect you from dirt
The same that you kicked when
It was lying down in disgust and disbelief
Tribulations in a noose of chord
Dreams in hopes of a dying- wish
Only to face
The Death and Ressurection Show

Its the one
You had feared the most as a juvenile
That's why they were fetched and caved
To make things so horrid that
The pain of me seems nothing at all
It seems to me that way
I can only imagine your nights getting dimmer
The salt getting saltier
And every articulate detail in uniqueness
A manoeuvre you can't but feel at most
Til' the day
The one day that
I'll realise how stifled you've been all the while
How you effaced your charm that never was
The touch you only read about
And died yearning of, one you din't deserve
The one who wished you did
And yet, died wishing
The moment you saw my two beautiful girls
Caper fantastically and dawn
the tears of you
Of how they danced on your lips
When they finally reached there
It's a shame it turned out to be a paradox
When I thought they were precious
And the moment was magnificent
Well, it wasn't
But we thought it was
That's when you made me realise
The perfection it could've been
If we always thought alike
And differed alike
My luck you had grown up by that time
To say it didn't matter anymore
'Cause we blew it
To make our lives a picturesque enigma
Like all the others
With their restricted perspective
I get you now
But explain it to me for once
Or whisper if you will
Isn't it so that
Our perspectives would've defined us
If that's what we chose
But we din't choose it
Too bad we had to lose it
Does it hurt too much
Do you speak too,
Or am I supposed to do the talking
Of all that was and never will be
Why did you had to change today
When I decided to be you and yours
Is it for spite or am I still too blunt for myself
I would've asked my husband
Hadn't he been so predictable to say that
He could've done a lot better
And I would've done a lot worse
I bet he'd eat his words
If he ever saw us in philander
That even the creator would realise
That it was all a morbid pleasure
On his part and mine
To entwine and still never let contact be our destiny

But this is nobody's day
Its just an encore of
The Death and Ressurection Show

If we met or if you saw that bird again
If there's unsettled dust in your mail
Consider it's me
With your reminiscence
The anecdote of two kids
Who never grew up
And who kept writing like it was the last time


There's unsettled dust near the bedpost
Underneath there's a savage spot
It's an expression of sorrow
It explains a lot
I always need to be good
For you, that's what I should
Why do I need so many cigarettes
Why do I feel like such a criminal

Its not that I designed this fate
Nor did your pigeons and parapets
How do I know so much
Do I have a secret peaphole
Could I be so stealthy
Or is it my innocence
It couldn't be, everyone says so
I'm just too obssessed with alcohol
And I love that it kills me so much
The reason for the Ashes on my Bed
is nothing but a piece of heart
It's definitely not my best
But it's certainly the most foiling
Why do I need so many cigarettes
Is it becos I'm a zombie
Or is it because I'm spoilt

Figure it out
If you can my relapse
I know only you can
You know only you can
Think of all the reasons of
Why I feel like such a criminal

I would give you all the happiness
If I could to myself
And the reasons to gratification and feeling
I would give you nerves
But you endowed me first
And took it back
Will and peacefulness they were
Rhyming the seasons throughout
Is it too confusing
Its too dark for the onlookers
Who told them to onlook
When they can't even read my mind
Why do they genuinely wanna help
They're not even my kind
You are

I know why I need so much vodka
And so many cigarettes
Bother to come close
And figure it out


Saturday, July 11, 2009

Baby you'll love your life tonight
I wrote these things just for you
Its been two sundays that I did
I don't wanna hold it anymore

The weather's never been like today
You've worn your see- through shirt for me
I know I said this yesterday
'n then you din't let me sleep at all

Mama I'm regurgitating like a whore
You make me this slut I love to show
I just love to show
Show Show
Hey Yeah Yeah

Lemme show you my leather pants
Lemme crush you like a whore
Then you'll feel what I feel in bed
When we're close but I'm still alone

Sugar sprinkled on my tongue
But I can't feel like I did before
Why do you kiss me in my dreams
You just don't let me sleep at all

Mama I'm regurgitating like a whore
You make me this slut I love to show
I just love to show
Show Show
Hey Hey Yeah

When I'm dead I'm still a whore
'cause I'm sleeping after all
Woah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah


These are a few of the special lines
that inspire all that I do, I know, I see,
I feel, I love 'n love more.
And these aren't mine
and still so close that I can't feel my
pants more.
My 2nd greatest love & the greatest ever band,
GUNS 'N ROSES (the original one).
By W.AXL Rose.........


Sail away sweet sister
Sail across the sea
Maybe you find somebody
That love happens as much as me

My heart is always with you
No matter what you do
So sail away, sweet sister 'cause
I always will be in love with you

But if you love somebody else sweetheart
I don't wanna know about you

'cause you see so many others
You know what I mean and
That's why I got to live
Without You

I'm in love with the girl
I'm talking about
I'm in love with the girl
That I can't live without

I'm in love but I feel
Like I'm living without
I'm in love but its the most
Bad time to be in love


Once in a while
When we kill each other
I feel like I've done a mistake
By forcing into Neverland
And being so oblivious

Like the Cirrus when you don't see it
Like a nobody when you don't see me
Its not vandalism
Maybe it just wasn't meant to be

I could've knocked, you know
I was lax to be discovered
A little fragile to be broken
One too shy to be spoken
But I can be copied
Tweaked 'n melodramatised
Kept to a simmer
Holding on to his senses in a fake beauty
Benign 'n feminine
Frivolous to all but women
'cause they are women
Come to talk about them
Even I loved one
A girl with everything a woman would envy
And yearn to rob and call it theirs
It is on a small note
I would have explained us
Had I been alive today

Once in a while
When we killed each other
I felt I'd done a mistake
By forcing into Neverland
And being so oblivious

Like the Cirrus when she din't see it
Like a nobody when she din't see me
Its not vandalism
Maybe it just wasn't meant to be

But I'm dead now
I cannot explain the breath I'm taking


Your fingers are calling
Into the fields of pressure
There's a sea in discomfort
Its really big
Its a giant sea

My name is Halcyon
I'm not a fiery bird
I'm a forced aerial
to be shot dead
A figure of Vodka
With eyes on my addiction
The nip is giant
and I cant wait
With you, I cant be realated
I was just craving
I dont crave now
I'm forsaken
Forsaken in the Rain

I'm melting
There's no protection in the rain
I'm still dying
For twenty years I've been the same

Little Girl, you've grown smaller than you think
But Im a giant
A giant way to come back
Don't act like you wonder

If it was my way
We would be groping
Thru sheets of satin
And searching for the gold
These thoughts shrink me
They'll dazzle you too
But if they dont
I can explain myself
Its just too violent
I cant watch me
I should be banned
From being so docile

Hey boy, sprinting thru the sand
Prove yourself
And drink on the hottest day
Little Girl, look at yourself
You're so yourself
I can hardly be me

Hey boy, sprinting thru the sand
Prove yourself
And drink on the hottest day
Little Girl, look at yourself
You're so yourself
I can hardly be me

Atleast I'm Giant
Atleast I'm something